Everytime he leaves i want to cry and just hold him that bit longer even though i know it means he'll be home late. I want to tell him that i love him all the time but i don't even dare becuase i worry if he will leave me, he might get scared and freak out. I love it when he smiles at me and i love it when he strokes me with his finger tops. I love how he is the only person with shortshortshort nails i can actually tolerate and don't shout at for it, because i love him exactly how he is. I love when he kisses me softly and it makes my spine tingle and i love how when i tell him that he tells me im cute and does it some more. I love how i don't get embarassed around him and I love how i can tell him anything and absolutely everything. I want him to be with me every second of everyday. When he is with me i want to be closer to him. When he isn't i want to be even closer to him, and i miss him the second he goes. He means so much to me. When i think about him leaving me i can feel my eyes starting to get wet and i start feeling almost sick. I need him now. I love how with him i can do alsorts and he won't judge me for it, for anything. I love how even though he makes me hurt and makes me angry and cry i'm alright with it 5 minutes later becuase he's said something nice, or just becuase i can't bear staying mad at him. I know we said this was going to be just a summer thing, but now i don't want summer to end.